The Start Of Something New
Today, I made one of the first proactive decisions I have made in recent memory.
I told my manager directly that I will not be continuing my contract next year.
Up to this point, I have been sort of letting things control me in my life.
- I got hired to one company, which caused me to leave graduate school.
- I stayed at that company for far too long and finally was let go after four years.
- During that period, I dated a girl on and off for an embarrassingly long time (Fine. 10 years).
These are all the symptoms of living a passive life. One where I am not in control. One where I don’t know where I want to go. One that will ultimately end in regret.
That’s why I feel so empowered by making this decision completely of my own accord. I saw where this position was going and I didn’t want to go there.
I reflected on my future, I realized I have about 30 good years in me left. And I want to constantly be on the lookout for the best possible missions and outcomes.
These opportunities are only seen by those who look. They are found when necessity kicks in.
For this same reason, I write.
For a decade, I wrote to myself quietly in Facebook statuses. I found great growth and insight in doing this, but again, it was more of what I was doing elsewhere in my life. It was once again being passive.
I understand that if I want to at least make it possible for more people to see my work, I should be writing here.
So here I am.
The thoughts I would like to fill my mind with from now on…
- Deep understanding that I am going to die.
- Clear idea of where I am going.
- Frequent consideration of what my best day looks like.
Some tweaking is probably necessary, but this combination of awareness tasks will get me on track for the near future.
